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Just realized, I made this last week and never actually posted it on the eljay.

I successfully lost the five pounds I wanted to lose before Otakon!!! YESSS. On a 5'0" person, this shows.

Weighed myself this morning - technically four pounds I guess, but this was after I ate a pretty frickin' huge and delicious bagel (GO TO GOLDBERG'S ON REISTERSTOWN ROAD OMG DELICIOUS, THANK YOU AARON FOR RECOMMENDING THEM AGES AGO, THANK GOD THAT IT STUCK OUT IN MY MIND). Five more pounds to go, and I'll look like I did back when I was at Plymouth. Never gonna get back to high school weight, and that is fine with me; it'd be too much of a goal, probably unhealthy, and I think that I am more of a woman now and less of a gawky teenager. XD

Stood in line for an hour and a half last night to get the badge.
IT'S AN OURAN BADGE, BITCHES. I AM SO HAPPY THEY HAD SOMETHING I LIKED ON THE BADGES THIS YEAR. Not that Kimba isn't a classic, but I haven't seen it...

So, drinking my water, letting that bagel digest a bit... need total fuel for this weekend!

I AM SO EXCITED. Wish me luck trying to get Kikuko Inoue's autograph... (wish I could have found my old Tenchi Forever VHS, she was Haruna and it would have been nice to have her sign something from my very first anime obsession... but I'll go with Chobits, she was Hibiya-san in that).

...AND WISH ME LUCK IN THE AMV CONTEST!! :D


OK GOTTA GO SHOWER AND GET MY MISA-MISA WIG AND MAKEUP ON. BUT THAT'S ALL FOR NOW, CHANGING AT THE CON, OPTING TO NOT WALK AROUND THE STREETS OF BALTIMORE DRESSED AS EP 13 MISA LOLOL


BAI

I had a dream last night. I was reunited with a bunch of my old friends from high school. They all looked the way they did then, not the way they do now. Oddly enough it was all at Otakon (which made sense for one of them, since she came down to visit last year and go to Otakon with me, but she wasn't the first one I saw, which is odd). A few faculty members too.

Also I dreamed that David cheated on me and I wagged my finger at him angrily all like "DON'T. CHEAT." I then became bitter and flirted with everyone, and at some point, I ended up in a bizarre mosh-pit-like crowd where everyone was sleeping or something, and I was trying to work my way through and find someone to cuddle with... and somehow at the same time it was a facebook quiz, and the result was that I was to cuddle with a pillow. And I was like "GOOD I NEED PERSONAL SPACE WHEN I SLEEP ANYWAY."

This is just LOADED with Freudian goodies, isn't it?? Don't want to think about it, though I think the mosh pit thing was a result of me watching a video of a rave party on youtube.

Oh, and Kaoru Hitachiin was hitting on me. Totally. Not a cosplayer, the actual character.

Also, new icon. XD



why can't I have a dream about a character that I actually fangirl over

can't sleep can't sleep can't sleep can't sleep.

FFS.

Also, feeling rather dejected; I wrote a fic for the DN kink meme that people were practically begging for, and four days later? STILL no comments. O_o I've written several other things for that meme, and they've gone over very well with comments within a day or so... so I know it's not my writing. It better not be my writing because I am damn proud of it. I just hope I didn't make the end too dark... but I've seen worse stuff on there as far as darkfics go.

Whatever. From what I can tell, they're not commenting on anything else that's new, either, so here's hoping it's just that not enough people have seen it...

icon fucking relevant.



(Dorotea, you are a genius for thinking of that book. Thank you.)

This actually happened. The damn thing got in my room, and all I heard was gross wings flapping, like, the kind you KNOW is some huge creepy bug. And I'm like "oh, well shit." THEN I FELT SOMETHING LAND ON MY LEG. I half-shrieked and flailed because it startled the hell out of me. At that point, I still didn't see what the hell was buzzing around.

Then I see this dumb little baby wasp kind of rolling around on the floor, apparently not able to fly very high. And I'm like "OH FUCK YOU, YOU HAVE A STINGER. DIE, YOU FUCK." So I'm looking around for something to smack it with, and I'm like "no, I don't want to get Opera News all gross with bug juice."

And then it hit me.

THE DEATH NOTE. (Ian got me one for my birthday; I used it as my Music History II notebook... figure, everyone's already dead, so taking notes for that class won't risk anything cosmic happening and freaking me out).

Anyway, so. THE DEATH NOTE. How FUCKING EPIC would that be, right??

Of course, now I can't find the damn wasp, and I'm standing here, with my shirt but no pants because it's too hot in the room, waiting for this wasp to show up again, startling me with its annoying-as-hell FLFLFLFLFLLFLFPPP gross wing noises.

And lo... it did.

And lo... I SMACKED THE SHIT OUT OF THE DAMN THING REPEATEDLY, CURSING AT IT AND LAUGHING MANIACALLY. WITH MY DEATH NOTE. " *excited gasp* HAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, YESSSS." Something like that.

It wasn't even faked; hell, why would I risk freaking my roommate out over this? I do NOT KNOW where that truly visceral, evil, sadistic laugh came from, except that a) I was so proud of myself for having killed a bug with a stinger, as I am usually one to freak out and leave the room and get someone else to kill it... and b) I KILLED USING THE DEATH NOTE. THIS IS POSSIBLY ONE OF THE MOST EPIC THINGS I HAVE EVER DONE.

I will not lie; it felt GOOD. That sick laugh came from the pit of my stomach; brief as it was, it was raw, unabashed, and ecstatic.

Which bothers me a bit. But you know something, I think I learned something through all this. I think this shows true human nature. As humans, we have an instinct to kill. And since most of us no longer hunt as early humans always needed to, we are deprived of that. Provided that most of us are also good-natured citizens like myself who would never DREAM of killing another human being... I think there is a bit of catharsis to be enjoyed through the conquest of something as small as a wasp. Something that could have stung me and been really, really fucking annoying. And I think, deep down, I understand our dear Light Yagami just a little bit more after tonight.

That or I'm a freak who just thought it was hilarious to actually kill something with a Death Note, merchandise though it may be.


Probably the latter.

To part, some words from my mother after I told her I killed a bug using the Death Note:

CANADA AND POLAND ARE MY PARENTS how embarrassing~

Cool~

http://fated.nu/dn_test.html

( results for me )

Pretty accurate, though I'm not sure how some of the random businessmen got in the middle over Near and Mello. And I'd consider Ryuuk higher on my list, but sometimes I was just clicking... I think I put "I like both" where I should have put "no opinion" for a lot of them. (I'd ESPECIALLY put Ryuuk before all the businessmen and Raye.)

But yeah, definitely Higuchi last. XD

YEAH THAT'S RIGHT

Not even, really. I really refuse to believe that this is borne of fangirlisms, because this is, indeed, strange.

Not to say that I'm not reacting like a fangirl, of course. XD ICON APPROPRIATE.

( Rant about Death Note EP 25 and THAT SCENE IN THE RAIN, mild spoilers for character development )

Had to share. I'm done now, going to bed~ :D


EDIT months and months and months later: He does not use the word "koi." Asked someone who knows someone who speaks Japanese, and he said I probably heard the word "koe." The fansubs are actually innacurate, and the official release is closer. Imagine that. This argument is completely moot.

Except it doesn't explain the awkward grunting. :3

So uh... I'm going post-happy today.

Fuck Sudafed - Bacardi clears up a stuffy nose better. Like, really. So much better. And after sleeping until 2:30 PM through all of my classes because of this damn cold, I think I can go to sleep a little easier now. Otherwise I'd seriously probably be up ALL night. Instead of just half the night.

In other news... L. Is fucking badass. I'm having another "I can't decide who my favorite character is" moment. You know why, specifically? I'm working on the most badass editing project I've done yet, and what I have so far is here: http://www.sendspace.com/file/su7ef5 It makes sense because as far as being a Light fangirl... I hate Light as much as I love him... and that's a lot of both. But L... you can't hate L. Seriously, you just can't. You can only like him more.

But L fangirls tend to be so annoying. Please see: ( here. )

I mean hell, I LOVE his voice, both English and Japanese. I MET HIS JAPANESE VOICE. I SHOOK HANDS WITH HIM AND I WILL NEVER STOP GLOATING ABOUT IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. But... really. If I ever start doubting the fact that I have a life... I see things like this, and it makes me feel instantly better.

And I'm getting to be obsessed with the word "fuck." It's in pretty much every post on here.

Why?