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[honoumiko]

http://www.cafepress.com/fach.39437364
I need this shirt. Badly. I'll probably buy it tomorrow.
It completely and accurately expresses my confusion right now.
AAAAGHHHH I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFINED TO SOUBRETTE!!!!

And my voice hurts. I think I lowered my larynx way too much during practice today. Plus I did choir without my own warmup because of lack of time. I hate that. And I've been drinking so much water and I'm still thirsty. Go figure.


I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFINED TO SOUBRETTE. I USED TO SEE MYSELF GROWING TOWARDS A LYRIC COLORATURA AND AT LEAST BEING MORE FLEXIBLE BUT NOW I FEEL TRAPPED IN THIS STUPID FACH. I mean, there's nothing wrong with being a soubrette but my ultimate goal is to be able to do a little bit of whatever I physically can.

I can't have such a deep passion for Madama Butterfly for no reason. I don't just want to play Cio-Cio-San, I need to play her. I don't care how long I have to wait, I just have to do it before I die. And the character I see in her is something that I think my voice will be able to pull off - young, cute, playful, until "tienti la tua paura io consicura fede" then she gets pangs that she might be in denial but ignores them until she's finally disillusioned, then she totally loses it. I think I can pull that off eventually.

Maybe I'm a spinto?

Maybe I'm so much like Butterfly that I'm unwilling to accept that I can't play her part?

I'm only (barely) 19! My voice teacher has absolutely no right to tell me what I will and won't be able to play. I still have a lifetime of vocal maturing to go through, and if I keep having growth spurts in my voice like I have been fairly often (as far as vocal growth goes), I could practically be Wagnerian. Yeah, I know, I highly doubt I'll ever be able to be considered a Wagnerian soprano, which I'm totally fine with. But I'm not fine with abandoning my Butterfly. I can't. That's how strongly I feel about it.

Yes, indeed. What the fach.

(Sorry if this confused all the opera virgins.)

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Comments

[eat-sleep-row.livejournal.com]

Hmmm yeah my voice teacher says she's leaning towards thinking of me as a dramatic soprano, possibly dramatic coloratura? I dunno...

[honoumiko.livejournal.com]

I can see that. Would you rather be something else?

[eat-sleep-row.livejournal.com]

Nah, that's good for me. Dramatic coloratura can sing Queen of the NIght! Yeeeeeeeeeee! But, I'm not especially fantastic at fun roles like Cherubino or Zerlina. Meh.

[honoumiko.livejournal.com]

Dude, you wanna trade some voice qualities? Zerlinas and such are my forte as of yet (not Cherubino though). Even though I can't stand her because she's sooooo annoying. I'm surprised you're not annoyed with her, she's such a weak person, lol... but she would probably be a lot of fun to play, I agree.

[eat-sleep-row.livejournal.com]

Well, she is annoying, and I don't like her arias much. But sometimes the ditzy, drunk, stupid, lustful, swooning, evil, plotful characters are the best to play. However. I am in love with Der Hollerach, so no trades anytime soon, I'm afraid :) I'm starting Ach, Ich Fuhls! It's amaaaazing...Prof. Beer thinks its perfect for my voice. I'm also singing Zueignung, and a couple others I don't remember. I got into the musical, Merrily We roll along, (sorry got tired of caps), but they want a lot of belting, and I'm scared! I don't really know what to do; I CAN, but it feels like I'm taking a cheese grater to my vocal chords if I do it too long. Whatev; bed time!

[honoumiko.livejournal.com]

ACH IS RIGHT!! Ach. I told my voice teacher I wanted to learn Ach, Ich Fuhls. She said it's too much of a lyric role to learn. SHE WON'T EVEN LET ME TRY. AAAACCHHHHH!!!! I want to work on what I'm not that great at, not ignore it!
Yes, it is perfect for your voice. lol.
We can share Der Holle Rache. :)
I just need a bit of your spintoisms. Sounds like Shintoism. Yeah. Butterfly is a damn difficult role. We should meet up soon and trade voice tips so you can have a little soubrette and I can have a little dramatic. And of course hang out and have fun. :D

[honoumiko.livejournal.com]

And congratulations!! I'm sure your voice teacher will help you through belting. I almost typed belging. WTF. NIGHT!!!!

[honoumiko.livejournal.com]

Oh, and she does have that one wicked dirty aria. SMUT! SMUT! That one is funny. I'd sing that.
But I hate the one where she's like "beat me up, I'd still love you" and she says it over and over and over again like everyone does in Mozart. Saying "touch me here" over and over and over again is way funnier. Ahhh, she's such a slut. :)